Author Archives: Laaylah

TweetYears ago; years ago how crazy is that??? 3 years ago it feels like forever and just yesterday… I was sitting in group of lovely ladies listening to Divine Grace speak on each ladies question… At that time my friends had just gone through a deep shift and they were struggling with the way they were being treated by longtime friends… They were desperately clinging to these friendships and so hurt that they were being told to go away or simply being ignored… I do not remember the exact question they had asked… I do remember the statement following as if it was last night… It was one of those … Continue reading →

TweetSo I went poking around with friends yesterday at BMSE, Body Mind Spirit Expo… As you know I love this show, though this time I was not really planning to go, until I got a message do you want to come along, all the sudden it was light and yes I did want to come along… So much going through me this last month that I have just really hidden from everyone… I get into crowds and I feel everyone tugging at me, I just want to run, run like hell for the nearest place that might be empty… I cannot seem to handle more than a handful of beings … Continue reading →

TweetHave you ever had one of those moments when you are sitting in the theater and something in a movie sparks the answer to a question you have been asking for as long as you can remember??? I had the most amazing yet ridiculous epiphany while watching of all things Mr. Peabody and Sherman with my son recently… It has been on my mind off and on since then… When I was a little girl I would have this dream, well nightmare really… It came with another over and over again, I would go to my mother’s room in tears, and since she always locked her door, and slept very … Continue reading →

TweetThey say the eyes are the window to the soul… I have always held this to be very true… I truly feel often all you would have to do is to look into my eyes, and you could see my whole world, everything I hold dear within… It feels as though I am naked when people do that, and not the naked without clothes; naked without any protection from anything someone could or would do to me… I know that if I do not want you to know my true feelings I have a very difficult time keeping eye contact with you… I suspect it often looks as though I … Continue reading →

TweetWhat I really want to do right now is scream… Scream loud and long and then go into the fucking tirade I deserve… Telling you how very angry it makes me all the hypocrisies that happen in everyday business… However since it is about the mundane life I lead in the everyday I will instead tell you what I do when I cannot just scream at the top of my lungs; after all we are not in the UK where you can scream like you are being murdered and no one even notices… I know this for a fact, I could hear my neighbors talking in their house next door … Continue reading →

TweetPisceans, my life if sprinkled with them… I have a niece, nephew, child, friends, and many partners/dates, that fall under the sign of Pisces… So to say my life is sprinkled is like saying fire is warm… It completely depends on where you are standing… You can bet that if I like him, I mean really like him, completely stuck and totally cannot stop thinking about him, head over heels infatuated to the point of delusion, he is a Pisces… I have some insane attraction to them, even though they know everything, they correct you no matter what you say, and you cannot make a generalized statement around them… If you … Continue reading →

TweetSo I had this whole spiel to tell you about how horrible this day has been, and what a victim I am… Blah Blah blah… Truth is for me today the worst part was my coffee spilled in my car… 7 years ago today was and still is and will probably always be one of my most favorite days… I was surrounded by family and friends and they were all happy and celebrating love… How does it ever get better than that??? After complaining to my teacher about the copycat stuff I have been watching taking place, I told him it feels as though it invalidates everything we had… That … Continue reading →

TweetYa, there does always seem to be another side to every story doesn’t there??? It looks like I get to show my duplicity now… So yesterday I had a meeting with my teacher, and of course I had all kinds of questions about India and the gentleman who has been on the mind for quite some time… While I was away in India; and very very sick… My gentleman friend we will call him, as this is how the teacher referred to him… He was from a distance watching over me… Making comments on my health and making sure I was taking care of me… The day I went to … Continue reading →

TweetGood Morning, Coffee??? “Always”… I have had coffee adventures already today… I set it all up and went to do the dishes, only to come around the corner and see I had forgotten to put the pot underneath… Well it is clear how that went several towels later… So then I go to make a fresh pot and instead of adding the beans to the grinder first, I pour them straight into the filter… lol… maybe I am a bit distracted??? Maybe I am a bit sleepy??? I was woken up at 3:30am with an incessant conversation going on in my dream *ya we will call it a dream*… Someone … Continue reading →

TweetVery beautiful, though you really do not know their true depth, until they have been uncapped… They are extremely powerful, with the ability to recreate a world through destruction… Even when they do not fully engage, the after effects are devastating and can be seen for decades… We had an occurrence of this nature when I was a teen… I remember ash covering everything, breathing the air caused the roof of my mouth to bleed from thousands of little cuts… It took 57 lives, and changed not only the view but the plant life living in those areas to this day… Oh the wonder of destruction… There is courage in … Continue reading →