Years ago; years ago how crazy is that??? 3 years ago it feels like forever and just yesterday… I was sitting in group of lovely ladies listening to Divine Grace speak on each ladies question… At that time my friends had just gone through a deep shift and they were struggling with the way they were being treated by longtime friends… They were desperately clinging to these friendships and so hurt that they were being told to go away or simply being ignored… I do not remember the exact question they had asked… I do remember the statement following as if it was last night… It was one of those things I have repeated time and time again to others since that evening…
Their words were Beloved one; it is simply a change in the light… It is as if you are shining a red light and all of your friends are red lights and the people you meet are red lights, and then you change and become a blue light, it is not that they do not love you; it is simply they cannot see you… They do not do this in malice they simply can only see the red light at this time… It may be that they will remain a red light in this life or they may become a yellow, or even a blue joining you again… You have not left them behind you have simply begun vibrating another color… Remember in these times that we are changing rapidly and they can always catch a faster bus or train, to meet up with you…
Or something very close to that…
Anyway, something of this nature has occurred in my world recently… I have shifted and changed in ways I have yet to put into words… If you take a long hard look at me I doubt that you could truly observe anything distinct in the change and yet it has been profound… The images I have been receiving for years are now much clearer, the connection to those around me stronger, the overall feeling of everything is so enhanced that it is unexplainable… I have a difficulty being around more than a handful of people and I have a definite knowing that actually startled me… Things that mattered to me two months ago do not now… Ties that were bound into my heart have released and fallen away… My eyesight has changed as well as my hearing… Not just my hearing but the hearing in words be spoken, they are now connected… It jumbles around in my mind to find the words to say what is mine now that was unseen before by me… I am on a sensory overload in almost every moment… I hear what is said and I know what is meant… Sounds simple and yet wasn’t before…
Let me see if I can explain a bit better… Before I had babies I remember having been in several situations in which I would go through the drama of, oh no I think I am pregnant, what if I am pregnant, I couldn’t be, what will I do, no I have been careful, where will I go, what will I say??? Because I can be a bit of a slow learner at times, I went through this many times, only to find I was not… However in both cases in which I was I knew immediately, long before the test… I knew for sure, absolutely positive, not a single doubt… This is the difference in me today…
Obviously I cannot take a test to prove the shift and yet I know it has come about, I also know it is not done… I have spent the last few weeks trying to test it, and trying it out in different situations, and yes doubting it could be that easy… Basically looking for a confirmation that I hadn’t just gone off the deep end… I have been asking for all of this for so long, and yet it is a bit scary…
Some part of me knew this was all taking place and had cleared the way for me to have space to be this change… However I am also watching people fall out of my life, as well as new people coming in… I can feel the change in the type of being that is seeing me now and though it is exciting it is also a bit sad to be moving on from a life I have known for so long…