So I went poking around with friends yesterday at BMSE, Body Mind Spirit Expo… As you know I love this show, though this time I was not really planning to go, until I got a message do you want to come along, all the sudden it was light and yes I did want to come along… So much going through me this last month that I have just really hidden from everyone… I get into crowds and I feel everyone tugging at me, I just want to run, run like hell for the nearest place that might be empty… I cannot seem to handle more than a handful of beings in my space at any given time; it has been a sensory overload… However in this case it felt light and I was with a like power, in a venue I have navigated many times so there was a comfort, therefore it seemed to work for me…
My friend wanted to have her Aura done, and I offered to do it with her and then everyone in our group had it done… It is a very funny thing judgment, So she does hers first it takes just a minute for the picture to print and she is asked to go to the back of the booth and another person does the reading portion for her, I sit and have mine taken, and continue with the man taking the photo… Seriously I thought they made a mistake with mine, it looked just like hers, only slightly different in some tones of the color and placement of the main green color we shared… I thought he was going to say hold on let me reboot this thing and we will start again… Nope!!! It really was almost the same as hers, our friends that came along after us, got totally different pictures… So as this goes on and we have very similar photo’s we have very different people giving us very different readings…
Mine goes something like all the green shows your imagination and ideas, you are very curious, you have strong will you like fun and yet you can control yourself , you are very curious and in your head, you are very curious *he said this a lot*, but there is no connection to health, to the body… You are not connected to the body, here is an exercise class we do… HA HA HA!!! Hers was she is a healer, and imaginative and she is speaking her truth more, and opening to her voice… *this is the day after so I have forgotten a lot of what he said*… Anyway she came out quite happy with a coupon for a five dollar, one on one session for a class she had wanted to take… Now she is a different framework than I am, so it is easy to see the difference in the upselling of the classes… I simply find it quite funny that she was not told she was disconnected from body… Clearly he had a few points of view he wanted to get across, and maybe I needed to hear this again??? However there are so many places that I got a no when he did my reading before I got to the body thing that, my biggest question around this was; is this for me to recognize my knowing???
We poke around a bit more in the day and try to get in to a class that we totally missed; about the grand trine occurring in the planets right now… The lady says she would happily tell us at her booth, about it if we would like to go over and chat… She was giving an astrology reading when we arrived so we all waited… it took a bit to complete and they were like well if we wait she will want us to pay her for a reading and I said I was going to get one anyway it was a twenty dollar mini reading with your birth chart and such… They are all “cool” we will just stay with you…
So I sit *they are all sitting around me* and give her my info, knowing what she was going to want to know… She says oh, well your chart does not show that you will be directly affected by the grand trine which is probably really good, and she proceeds to tell me that I am at the end of my Saturn return and that I have probably been in a very rocky relationship if I was in one at all… I told her no I am not in one and have not been since entering Saturn returns three years ago… She says that was probably best, and goes on to say that my past love life had been rough and intense, and that it will be about two and a half years before I will welcome relationship in my life again… *please note; I am giving you the jest of what I heard and remember* That I can’t be bothered with relationships at this time as they are more annoying than I can handle through this transition… I am of course if you know me at all looking at her like what have you been drinking/smoking??? And being direct as I usually am, and I said “so what you are telling me is that if someone was to enter my life right now or in the next two years I do not have even a chance of having a relationship with this man at all”??? She says no that is not what I said at all, I said it would be difficult to have one, that to begin one now would be hard work… She goes on to say that I am not in the place of taking any of the hit and run type guys, or any nonsense… That as soon as it would come up, I would end it… That if I was to have a relationship at this point it will have depth because I am not willing to settle for less than that, it would be annoying to me otherwise, and not worth my time… Yep!!! That is about right… That has about summed up the energy of what I have been discovering lately…
This is too funny really, I cannot put up with it… I can take your truth and your directness even when I think you are being a total doosh *yes I know that is not how it is spelled but I like how it looks and the other way kept messing up my spell checker too* However play your player card, or let me catch you trying to lie to me, and I am not in it… See Ya!!! Some guy did this to me in December and I just told him off, and ended all the online dating stuff… I was just sick of the game… I have been out on a few since, but mostly with guys I have known for a long time that do not feel they need that game anymore… I know I am supposed to be all check me out, and pretend I do not notice… Play hard to get, and bat my eyelashes appropriately to attract the perfect guy and keep him… Well guess what??? I don’t want to… I would rather be me and have fun; I think it is highly possible that I can find a guy that likes me as I am without all of the games… Besides if he can see past the missing flutter of hard to get, I know that the rest will be totally worth it and way more fun than can be imagined… If not, then I guess I will be on my own for a bit longer…
Which does not in any way mean that I am giving up…?
Most of my friends also had their reading done as well, they were all good readings, and we were all yep, that is you, and remember that time, or when you said that…
After all this we went to dinner it was really a wonderful day!!!
PS I have two full reading this week , wish me great stuff… How does it get even better than that???