Monthly Archives: May 2014

TweetThis is never a good conversation… It simply means we are going to have a long conversation about how much I suck, and then we will no longer be speaking after that… I have been the lucky recipient of this more than once recently… Don’t get me wrong I knew this was coming… I had just assumed that it would all fade into the woodwork as ending friendships often do… I had figured that after the way everything had gone down at Halloween, I was on borrowed time… It is very hard to admit that only one of you can have the friends at the end of the divorce… It … Continue reading →

TweetWhich would you choose??? Each has its merits, and its downside… With dating there are all the things you can and cannot do… You cannot wear sweat pants on a date, well not and expect a second date, and if you get a second don’t be surprised if you end up in the drive thru at the local fast food place… You have to be understanding even when you don’t understand… You have to agree that he can go out with the guys on that one night you set up a romantic dinner for you both, because he needs his guy time *no worries we can do it next week … Continue reading →

TweetMy eyes got big and my energy shrunk back… I know I must have looked entirely freaked out… So she rephrased her words, it does not have to be marriage; it will be a very solid committed relationship, like a marriage would be considered… I have heard her words over and over again since I saw her a month ago… You will be married in two years… I cannot tell you how deeply I hope this is true… She said we were fated karmic ally to be… I am having difficulty seeing this, at this moment… There are moments when I can see it, and moments that I cling to … Continue reading →

TweetI know that seems a silly request but for months now I have wanted to ask for your pillow… I know deep inside my heart that if I was to have your pillow, the place where you lay your head, I could feel safe, protected, loved, and most of all I could finally sleep… It’s really a win win situation, you know… You get to be all distant, and dark, pretending I am not on your mind all the time, and that all you want is to touch me, and take care of me… And I can have a piece of you near me, something that smells like you, and … Continue reading →

TweetA group of us are standing outside a restaurant waiting for a table when, one of my friends breaks into laughter as she was looking at me… This is when I want to check to see if I have something on my face, check my nose, and straighten my clothes… I ask “what???” “It’s just so funny…” “What is so funny???” As she starts telling me that she and another friend *not present at that moment* had been talking about me a few days before, and how amazing it is to watch men around me… She mentions the time we were out walking a trail in near her house, and … Continue reading →

TweetThey are not looking at me, they are looking at me!!! How is that for a contradiction??? In other words what they see is not who I am on this planet; it is what I truly am as a being… So when I say that they are not looking at me, I mean they do not stop to see the person that is having this human experience… They are seeing the light being that is multi-dimensional and timeless… While they do not know how to receive that light being, they expect that they are one in the same… Though they are, they are not…. You cannot be a body without … Continue reading →