Monthly Archives: March 2014

TweetThey say the eyes are the window to the soul… I have always held this to be very true… I truly feel often all you would have to do is to look into my eyes, and you could see my whole world, everything I hold dear within… It feels as though I am naked when people do that, and not the naked without clothes; naked without any protection from anything someone could or would do to me… I know that if I do not want you to know my true feelings I have a very difficult time keeping eye contact with you… I suspect it often looks as though I … Continue reading →

TweetWhat I really want to do right now is scream… Scream loud and long and then go into the fucking tirade I deserve… Telling you how very angry it makes me all the hypocrisies that happen in everyday business… However since it is about the mundane life I lead in the everyday I will instead tell you what I do when I cannot just scream at the top of my lungs; after all we are not in the UK where you can scream like you are being murdered and no one even notices… I know this for a fact, I could hear my neighbors talking in their house next door … Continue reading →

TweetPisceans, my life if sprinkled with them… I have a niece, nephew, child, friends, and many partners/dates, that fall under the sign of Pisces… So to say my life is sprinkled is like saying fire is warm… It completely depends on where you are standing… You can bet that if I like him, I mean really like him, completely stuck and totally cannot stop thinking about him, head over heels infatuated to the point of delusion, he is a Pisces… I have some insane attraction to them, even though they know everything, they correct you no matter what you say, and you cannot make a generalized statement around them… If you … Continue reading →

TweetSo I had this whole spiel to tell you about how horrible this day has been, and what a victim I am… Blah Blah blah… Truth is for me today the worst part was my coffee spilled in my car… 7 years ago today was and still is and will probably always be one of my most favorite days… I was surrounded by family and friends and they were all happy and celebrating love… How does it ever get better than that??? After complaining to my teacher about the copycat stuff I have been watching taking place, I told him it feels as though it invalidates everything we had… That … Continue reading →

TweetYa, there does always seem to be another side to every story doesn’t there??? It looks like I get to show my duplicity now… So yesterday I had a meeting with my teacher, and of course I had all kinds of questions about India and the gentleman who has been on the mind for quite some time… While I was away in India; and very very sick… My gentleman friend we will call him, as this is how the teacher referred to him… He was from a distance watching over me… Making comments on my health and making sure I was taking care of me… The day I went to … Continue reading →

TweetGood Morning, Coffee??? “Always”… I have had coffee adventures already today… I set it all up and went to do the dishes, only to come around the corner and see I had forgotten to put the pot underneath… Well it is clear how that went several towels later… So then I go to make a fresh pot and instead of adding the beans to the grinder first, I pour them straight into the filter… lol… maybe I am a bit distracted??? Maybe I am a bit sleepy??? I was woken up at 3:30am with an incessant conversation going on in my dream *ya we will call it a dream*… Someone … Continue reading →

TweetVery beautiful, though you really do not know their true depth, until they have been uncapped… They are extremely powerful, with the ability to recreate a world through destruction… Even when they do not fully engage, the after effects are devastating and can be seen for decades… We had an occurrence of this nature when I was a teen… I remember ash covering everything, breathing the air caused the roof of my mouth to bleed from thousands of little cuts… It took 57 lives, and changed not only the view but the plant life living in those areas to this day… Oh the wonder of destruction… There is courage in … Continue reading →

TweetUnderstand??? This is one of my least favorite and yet one of my most used words… How often I say I don’t understand… How often my thoughts are tied up in the understanding of the energy, the thoughts, or behavior of someone else… I just begin to think I understand what they mean or how they feel, and Wham!!! The energy shifts again… Recently I had been very sure, I mean very very sure of someone else’s feelings, I had been sure that this person was truly willing to be a part of my world, without judgment… I was finally beginning to relax from the needing to watch the signs, … Continue reading →

TweetYou know every day is a struggle to remember that even when I say something out of turn that it is who I am… I did this again the other day, I do not think I said anything that would harm, though I shared an inside joke, not realizing it might not be funny to someone else… I share, often too much, and other times not enough… I did not mean to share something I was not supposed to… I often remember to tell you I care but forget to say truths about what I see… Sometimes words come falling out of my mouth and it is only after the … Continue reading →

TweetGood Evening, I say that as if it is not already the wee hours of the night here in India… It is quite late, though today has been quite wonderful… I have been here two and half weeks… During my journey, as well as upon my arrival I was quite sick… I spent the first thirty six hours in my room mostly in bed not sleeping… By the time I called the front desk for assistance, I had not slept in 72 hours other than brief minutes on the planes… I could barely keep my eyes open and as I would begin to doze off, I would then start coughing … Continue reading →