Monthly Archives: May 2013

TweetDo you find it strange, that such gorgeous stuff can grow from being covered in shit??? I am of course using this metaphorically… I have had the joy of becoming much more aware of what I have been putting out in the world recently… I recently had the experience of being treated very poorly by someone I care about, which of course sent me into a spiral of; what did I do??? Why would I choose this??? Blah Blah Blah!!! You know all the ways you make yourself wrong for a choice someone else makes… As if you had any control over their choices at all… Anyway, it triggered me … Continue reading →

TweetToday I am picking a bitch… Once upon a time I created a dating profile, captioned High Maintenance… Not just because it got your attention, but also because I am well aware I require a lot of attention… Truly I am ok with that, and I make no apologies for it…  I honestly got the most responses from this profile, more than any other I have created… One man answered and informed me that there was no way I was high maintenance, but that he would be happy to assist in the maintenance process… *hahaha* Not so much… You know the truly funny part??? I wrote this very long detailed … Continue reading →

TweetI know yesterday was rather cryptic, and I will not be clarifying, so there you are… Here is what else I know; I am a very lucky woman… I have many, many things and beings to be grateful for… I have been blessed more than I can say, and yet I would like to tell you some of my blessings… Recently; I have met many amazing people to add to the friends I have been making over the years… While in England I found a whole set of people that I cherish beyond what I can say… Since returning here in December, I have made many others… In just the … Continue reading →

TweetI should be knighted, do they knight women??? I did one of those things you are never supposed to do today… “Courage is not the absence of fear but rather the judgment that something else is more important than fear. The brave may not live forever but the cautious do not live at all.” *Princess Diaries Quote* I made a choice that I do not agree with all of those beings making the rules… I am not the follower, I am simply me… I make my rules, and even though I probably just fucked up my whole world again, it is my world and if I just stand here and … Continue reading →

TweetIf you knew beyond any doubt that you could have just what you desire most, if you did something you have never been willing to do before, would you do it??? Would you seize the day??? Take the shot??? Win the game??? It’s funny we tell ourselves how morally sound we are in our beings; are we really??? I would never, I could never, why would I do that??? How many times have you made these statements??? Is any of it true??? If you believe in reincarnation, and that this is not your first lifetime… Then in the grand scheme of things *I have probably said this before*; if you … Continue reading →

TweetIs there something you refuse to let yourself have??? Is it because you don’t desire it, or because if you did have it you would never let it go??? For example; say you tell yourself you do not like sweets… You are fitness conscious, you know that your body prefers not to have these things, or is it that if you were to allow sweets into your world regularly, that you would crave them all the time and that would change your body in a way that no longer allowed you to control how it appears??? Sometimes I think it is what we won’t let ourselves have that is the … Continue reading →

TweetWhat don’t you want to look at today??? Have you noticed??? Is there something from the shadows, which may be a reoccurring theme in your life??? Of course I do, or we wouldn’t be having this conversation… Now is the time of things coming to light, those places within resting in the shadows will now be seen… How does that work??? I come from a place of needing to understand… For years people have been saying just let it go… In return I have been asking how do you just let it go??? How do you let go of all the inconsistencies??? The places where you are told one thing, … Continue reading →

TweetWow, I have finished level 1, in Access… I have to say it was a very energetic weekend, and everything that came up was absolutely shifting, and still is shifting about in me today… That’s the thing about this type of class, you really do not see the full effect for some time, and then as all the energies begin to settle, you can begin to see the changes in you… It’s like when you are doing anything day after day, others see how you change , though you do not grasp all of the change until sometime later…I am excited to see all this unfold… Over the last few … Continue reading →

TweetI know this is a very very long shot… So please know this has more to do with talking to the universe and the energy of ask and you shall receive; than that anyone specifically will know… Once upon a time long ago, 20 plus years I was hanging out with this gorgeous guy named Jeff Wolff *for some reason I do not think this is how he spelled it, though it will work for these purposes*… At the time I was a bartender and we would go to Shari’s when I was done in the a.m. of the night… He worked at a salon across from the tavern where … Continue reading →

TweetToday I actually sent myself notes to remind myself what I wanted to say… This song came on the radio on my way to friends, and it sent me off into another time… http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=k9e157Ner90 , where were you when this song came out??? I was hanging with Century *isn’t that the coolest name??? * The summer this played on the radio, it sends me into the memories of her and her boyfriend *though honestly I cannot remember his name*… She and I had become friends from school, and I spent most of the summer with her, her boyfriend, his younger brother *which is ultimately what this is about* and their mother… … Continue reading →