Monthly Archives: November 2013

TweetToday I am grateful for a very beautiful sixteen year old girl, dressed in black, with purple hair… She walks with an air of confidence, she pretends that she does not care what others think, and she holds a wall between you and her to keep from being hurt; all the time knowing she will be disappointed… She is strong in her opinions, in her likes and dislikes, though like many she falters, only to stand again; a little taller, and a little surer of herself… She creates her own beauty, with what she finds in this world… She has shown me many times that what I could not imagine … Continue reading →

TweetIt is dulling through time… Though I have spent quite a bit of time trying to use someone else as a bandage for what hurts, or as a way to distract me from what I have not wanted to see… Fortunately and unfortunately it has not worked, there has been no appeasement from the truth of it; this time I have to let it heal… There is no more faking, pretending, or hiding it; it is really healing this time… And like any open wound it stings, and itches and makes itself known in the most inappropriate times… I know in the end of this, we will be done with … Continue reading →

TweetNow there is a good question… I feel lost, broken, homesick, replaced, lonely… Can you feel replaced??? Is that a feeling??? Probably not… I have so many crazy little wants, everyone just another little broken piece, with sharp edges that cut… I hear all these words floating about, “you are replaceable”, “you deserve this”, “this is your fault”, “well, we are all on the fence about you”, and “you are a waste of energy”… I could have taken the easy route; I could have kept what I wanted so desperately to be real, even knowing it wasn’t… I could have lied and pretended… Though it would have only led to misery all … Continue reading →