My eyes got big and my energy shrunk back… I know I must have looked entirely freaked out… So she rephrased her words, it does not have to be marriage; it will be a very solid committed relationship, like a marriage would be considered…
I have heard her words over and over again since I saw her a month ago… You will be married in two years… I cannot tell you how deeply I hope this is true… She said we were fated karmic ally to be… I am having difficulty seeing this, at this moment… There are moments when I can see it, and moments that I cling to the thoughts knowing that if this is so, then it stands to reason he is very near… They have all said soon; over and again, and as much as I know he is close; I lose hope more often now than ever before, it has been almost three years… That dream has always been so clear and now I am not so sure… Now I ask what does it mean, maybe it didn’t mean what I thought??? Maybe it was a time in which I would make a friend??? Maybe it is all a dream and this is just a way to get me out of bed each day??? Maybe it is just one more break in the heart??? Though that little girl with the big dreams of love doesn’t want to let go… So Maybe, just maybe if I am good, I mean really good; I will be in a very loving committed relationship like she said… The Stars and all that is the Divine; willing…
She told me like in other readings, June, June would decide how this all plays out… So here I sit trying to be patient, trying to just be, trying not to push, yell or scream… Just be me, Just be, Just love me, Just be…
She told me many other things, she said I would move over the summer and it would be a big move… That it was extremely possible it would be overseas, and that if it was not overseas, it would more than likely be with this man, and it would be very solid and comfortable with a real security… I like that a lot… She said if I make it through to June I will have this job for some time… That it is very possible they will relocate me overseas in about a year, if I do not go in September… That they really like me there… I have to wonder why they would; I am a mouthy one… And yet it is good to have a job where they value you… I certainly try to do a good job…
So we wait to see how the fates will play in June…
How could this be better than anything I could ever plan or imagine???