They are not looking at me, they are looking at me!!!
How is that for a contradiction???
In other words what they see is not who I am on this planet; it is what I truly am as a being… So when I say that they are not looking at me, I mean they do not stop to see the person that is having this human experience… They are seeing the light being that is multi-dimensional and timeless… While they do not know how to receive that light being, they expect that they are one in the same… Though they are, they are not…. You cannot be a body without a being, though you can be a being without a body…
As an embodied human, I have feelings, insecurities, desires, moments of clarity, moments of true insanity, I have likes and dislikes, and I enjoy things like chocolate and cuddling… I have hopes, dreams, needs, and again desires… Rarely does someone look past the light and see the person… As a light being I am love, I have what I need in every moment, there is no alone, no insecurities, I am whole, I am connected to all things, I am oneness, and I am a part of God…
So I listen to people tell other people about me and I hear things that are no longer true, or were not true, or do not feel true… They think they know me by reading this blog, or speaking to me in public or private… It is so funny, as if anyone could really know the embodied me without asking me questions… The other day my daughter’s boyfriend asked me about my favorite sport, that if I was to watch or play one which would I choose??? I quickly answered baseball, and that I had played softball in school and had really enjoyed it *not to mention there are cute guys in tight pants*… My daughter looked puzzled and said “I would not have guessed that at all”… This is someone who spent every day for almost twenty years with me… They say I am positive, wise, confident, strong, loving, intuitive, kind, caring, nonjudgmental, and they miss all the places where I am negative, pathetic, violent, angry, gossipy, extremely judgmental, flippant, fickle, and many others…
Most of all they do not see where I see the light being and forget to see the human… I have spent years seeing the real being, reaching for this being and finding that they could never be what I can see; because they are having a human experience… I have been through many a bottle of Advil in the hopes of relieving a headache caused by my unwillingness to admit that when they embodied they forgot who they were, as did I…
So they tell me I am here to wake them up, to show them how to remember who they are… I do this and I wait impatiently for them to awaken, and I wait for them to remember, and I wait, and I wait some more…