Do you find it strange, that such gorgeous stuff can grow from being covered in shit??? I am of course using this metaphorically… I have had the joy of becoming much more aware of what I have been putting out in the world recently…
I recently had the experience of being treated very poorly by someone I care about, which of course sent me into a spiral of; what did I do??? Why would I choose this??? Blah Blah Blah!!! You know all the ways you make yourself wrong for a choice someone else makes… As if you had any control over their choices at all… Anyway, it triggered me similarly as it usually does, though this time I watched it play out with awareness… I went and spewed my victim energy out into the world and it was received immediately… This played out in a way I would not have guessed…
Ultimately I was able to sit and watch the counter part of my victim, show up in the form of perpetrator, and join me for lunch… Very very weird… Truly I have done this type thing many times through the years, and not had any clue that the being I had brought forth was my creation, to show me what a victim I am… So just my willingness to see it now is beyond huge for me… Not to mention exciting… So I allowed myself to sit in this energy, and watch how this being tried to show me what a victim I am… He told me about how his life was completely stuck in the fear reality of this dimension, and how he believed opposites attract, so we should be together… *giggle* In my head I am thinking there is sometimes truth in the opposites attract statement, though in this particular case it is simply victim/perpetrator… Also it is important that I tell you it was while sitting in this energy, which I was able to see my victim and transform it back to the power that I truly am… I found ease in making up a story that would allow me to leave in a way that was non-confrontational; the universe saw fit to validate my story through texts that made it all credible… This is something I have had difficulty with in the past; being willing to lie, even when it is necessary for my own wellbeing… So to say I was excited is a bit of an understatement… *I know it sounds weird that I say I was excited… So I am qualifying with; I know that simply in seeing this now, allows this energy to transform making it very unlikely that the pattern will continue, and if it does I am willing to be aware of it…* I left this lunch feeling very empowered and through later communication with this being was shown how very correct my assessment of the energy was…
Not to worry all was not lost in this endeavor, once I acknowledged and honored my awareness, in both situations… I started asking questions around it, and to a friend… When *BAM* it hit me… I recognized what I would like to do, and I did it… I made contact with someone from a while ago and turns out he was very open to reconnecting…
How does it get even better than that??? What are the possibilities??? How could this be better than anything I could ever plan or imagine???