I should be knighted, do they knight women??? I did one of those things you are never supposed to do today…
“Courage is not the absence of fear but rather the judgment that something else is more important than fear. The brave may not live forever but the cautious do not live at all.”
*Princess Diaries Quote*
I made a choice that I do not agree with all of those beings making the rules… I am not the follower, I am simply me… I make my rules, and even though I probably just fucked up my whole world again, it is my world and if I just stand here and pretend that this is all ok with me, then I am lying to me…
Don’t get me wrong I am beyond freaked out… My hands are shaking so bad that I can barely type this, I want to throw up, and the music is really loud so that I cannot hear the silence of your response… But I did it anyway… I know it was my choice, as I know you will make your own, and you are the only one who can make that choice…
So now I will sort the other stuff, take a shower, do the daily things, and fall apart when I have some me time, and no one is looking at me… Tomorrow I will start again a whole new day, a whole new choice, a whole new world, with any luck I won’t feel sick, and I know I made the effort for me, and there is no place for regret…
How does it get better than this??? How could this be better than anything I could ever plan or imagine??? *still my favorite questions*