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TweetHave you ever noticed, or should I ask; have you ever met someone you already knew??? That person that you know you have not met before, though something in the way they stand, or smile, hold them self… Maybe it is something in the eyes??? The eyes are often the answer… The eyes show far more than people know, you can see love, depth, cruelty, joy, and a universe of other things right there in the eyes… I went to a CS gathering last night; lots more people than I imagined would be there… Not that I didn’t think there would be people there considering there are a minimum of … Continue reading →

TweetIt really doesn’t matter what day it is, really every day is a good day to be grateful… Today I am grateful for a very new baby that has grown into a very compassionate man… This child blessed me with the joy of loving someone so instantly for no other reason than he came through me… He was so filled with personality right from the start… He was and has always been clear what he wanted and how to get it, even when the answer was no… I fell in love right from the moment we met… I watched him yawn and stretch and fell in love again and again… … Continue reading →

TweetI  really do not like being cold, however I love sunny brisk days!!! They are absolutely refreshing!!! Something about them is different than being cold… Like when it is cold in the house it is not the same cold as outside… The house type cold is stagnating, whereas the outdoors type cold, is where the air is moving and renewing… It is just yummy, and I forget how much I like it until it comes this time of year… I was that girl dancing and singing in the car today, with the windows down… Do you know what would have made it even better??? Mulled wine… *sigh* … Might be … Continue reading →

TweetThe question, the theme, the conversations seems to be what do you want to do for your birthday??? Apparently sleep doesn’t seem to be a sufficient answer???  Though it is what I would like to do… I was telling someone at work I have been catching up on all that sleep I did not get when my kids were little… lol… I have at least another year to go… Really!!! Ok fine no sleeping… *yawn*… It is the sleepy time of year though in case you were not aware… All the little creatures, even the trees are asleep… Not the Faeries… The Faeries are wide awake… I want to go … Continue reading →

TweetToday I am grateful for a very beautiful sixteen year old girl, dressed in black, with purple hair… She walks with an air of confidence, she pretends that she does not care what others think, and she holds a wall between you and her to keep from being hurt; all the time knowing she will be disappointed… She is strong in her opinions, in her likes and dislikes, though like many she falters, only to stand again; a little taller, and a little surer of herself… She creates her own beauty, with what she finds in this world… She has shown me many times that what I could not imagine … Continue reading →

TweetIt is dulling through time… Though I have spent quite a bit of time trying to use someone else as a bandage for what hurts, or as a way to distract me from what I have not wanted to see… Fortunately and unfortunately it has not worked, there has been no appeasement from the truth of it; this time I have to let it heal… There is no more faking, pretending, or hiding it; it is really healing this time… And like any open wound it stings, and itches and makes itself known in the most inappropriate times… I know in the end of this, we will be done with … Continue reading →

TweetNow there is a good question… I feel lost, broken, homesick, replaced, lonely… Can you feel replaced??? Is that a feeling??? Probably not… I have so many crazy little wants, everyone just another little broken piece, with sharp edges that cut… I hear all these words floating about, “you are replaceable”, “you deserve this”, “this is your fault”, “well, we are all on the fence about you”, and “you are a waste of energy”… I could have taken the easy route; I could have kept what I wanted so desperately to be real, even knowing it wasn’t… I could have lied and pretended… Though it would have only led to misery all … Continue reading →

TweetOnce upon a time long long ago, there was a man that I depended on everyday… Nearly every day I would walk into his office, and proceed to vent my frustration upon him… I would say I do not understand??? Why would they continue to do this or that, can’t they see that it blah blah blah or blank each time they do this??? Why do they not simply see*blah blah blah or blank*???” And he in turn would reply to me almost every day “I understand your frustration, and I cannot say you are wrong… I agree that you are being logical, or using your common sense, in fact … Continue reading →

TweetI go into my dad’s old house it is the same as it was years ago, on the first level… It is incomplete just raw two by fours and plywood… There was a laundry space down there and the water heater, as well as that is where he stored all his tools… He was a plumber… So there were pipes, toilets, wrenches, and so on… I walk upstairs to the second floor, and there is this lounge space with all this oversized puffy furniture making it a circular room… There is a huge TV dropping from the ceiling in the center of the room as well as a huge coffee … Continue reading →

TweetI had a dream last night I was in this house that was being remodeled… This house was in England, and it turns out to be the Ludworth house, which I housesat/rented in my first visit… While in this house I am noticing all the workers and the work they are doing it is really beautiful, I start talking to one of the men working there, and he tells me about the house… That is when I realize it is this house where I lived; of course it looks nothing like the house I rented, for one it is enormous with high ceilings and amazing details such as hand carved … Continue reading →