I had a dream last night I was in this house that was being remodeled… This house was in England, and it turns out to be the Ludworth house, which I housesat/rented in my first visit…
While in this house I am noticing all the workers and the work they are doing it is really beautiful, I start talking to one of the men working there, and he tells me about the house… That is when I realize it is this house where I lived; of course it looks nothing like the house I rented, for one it is enormous with high ceilings and amazing details such as hand carved crown moldings… He tells me he took down the walls and opened it back up to the original form *mind you it was truly a tiny little duplex in its original form*… I am saying things like I wondered what had been on the other side of that wall, and telling him that I had lived there, he replies “really when???” I go on to tell him that I had house sat for the man that owns it, for about six months… He says “I don’t think so, I am the man that owns it”… I tell him the man’s name and he tells me that he had been a renter there though he had never owned it… That I must have been there illegally subletting… I did not argue this point; I simply shrugged it off and went about snooping… I ask if I can see the rest of it and he says “no, it isn’t safe to go beyond this point”, they are still working on it and he doesn’t want the liability… So I go off to speak with the other workers asking questions about what is happening, and what does it look like beyond this point… I start to convince a few of them to show me around, when the man comes back and tells them to get to work…
*In the tradition of dreaming* I leave with no idea how and end up on a side street walking after dark *also in England*… I see this pasture that does not have cows or horses in it; instead it has four tigers… I see the tigers and think I should walk slowly back where I have come from before one of them sees me, when one of them does see me and starts to walk towards me, like I am lunch… I think I should run but all I can do is back away, there is a fence beside me and I consider jumping over it knowing there is a chance this will slow me down and he will get me sooner, he comes about 25 feet away and I think that instead of jumping the fence or running, I will just wake up; so I do…
Interpretations;
The part in the house; I spent a lot of time in the Ludworth house crying, and learning who I am as an individual… It was the first time I had ever lived alone… I had to be self-sufficient and I had to ask for help… That there were many people working on this remodel feels as though many have been guiding my expansion, *making me the house*… It is comforting that the work on the house was being done really beautifully… There is also an air that I am not allowed to see all of it, because it isn’t finished there is still expansion being done… The things that will be revealed when it is right…
The part with the tigers; it felt terrifying and calm at the same time… It felt like though there was fear, I had the choice to stay or go… It was interesting that the tiger walked, he just steadily walked to me with intent…