Author Archives: Laaylah

TweetAugust, I am jobless and setting up all the things you set up when you are out of work. I am also dealing with my mother, oh what a joy that is. To say my mother didn’t handle my losing my job well is beyond understatement. I told her in an email, and her response was vicious *there is no other way to say it*. She went off on how she could no longer help me, that I would have to get assistance and how she had never been on such a thing, blah blah blah. There are no words to express how difficult it is to read or hear … Continue reading →

TweetGood Morning all, Here I am at my computer in my jammies drinking coffee *which I am not supposed to do* typing random shit. It is raining today which does not make me want to go outside. I am trying to come up with where to start? As I am sure you have seen my the archives of random shit here in my blog I have been through a lot the last few years, and seriously I am ready for a break! I have not done much writing here since last summer-ish, due to job hunting and working and excuses that I have not come up with yet. I had … Continue reading →

TweetI can’t stop laughing. You know how you do things when you are little and you don’t really think about them at all? When I was a child we lived in this great big house. You know the type ten bedrooms, our living room was easily the size of a one bedroom apartment, and we had a tiled entry way with a curving stair case that led to the upper level library, which had a white ornate wrought iron banister all the way around it, as well as white carpet throughout the house. So as you reached the top of the stair case you entered the library which was open … Continue reading →

TweetSo today I am on the freeway singing along to whatever song was on the radio. I need to get over from the far lane into the center in order to take my exit, though a gold suv was coming from the far right into the center where I need to be. I try to pace back in order to get over behind him and he slows too, which frustrated me. I start swearing, and saying unkind things in the car about his/her driving. I proceed to take my exit, and as I pull up to the stop light, I notice that the car behind me has two ladies in … Continue reading →

TweetAfter an amazing couple days of watching someone show how completely psychic one can be, I walked into a reading with this man and his first words were “so your mother is mentally unstable.”  You would think that as many times as I have said she is bat shit crazy, it would not have been such a profound revelation, and yet it truly has been.  Don’t get me wrong I have totally thought she was mental, I just never thought it was diagnosable. Turns out she really does live just on the brink, a half ounce on the scale and she is over.  So many stories come forward when I … Continue reading →

TweetWhat is your belief around these words??? I have been told that my beliefs are dangerous, and addictive… That to believe that I am an infinite being, is to not fully live this life I have now, as I believe that I can always do it again… That is an interesting point of view… I have been informed that it is more fulfilling to believe I am finite and to discover that I am infinite life after life; would be a joyful surprise that allowed me to live each life to the fullest…  again a very interesting point of view… I would love to tell you I handled this with … Continue reading →

TweetInteresting question… Who am I??? We ask this and similar questions everyday… So I will explain this question I am asking so that there is no confusion around it…   Example; A few months ago, I was working with a lady… A nice gal, and I thought we had been friendly… I remember on one specific day, there was a conversation about my dating someone… She said a bit to my surprise; that she was sure I did not have a boyfriend because she felt she would have known that information about me… I remember thinking she must have believed us to be somewhat close, that I would have told … Continue reading →

TweetIn late June I got a text from my ex … I had, had to contact him about my camera cord, and could I get it back??? The last time I had remembered seeing it was last summer in his office… We discussed the kids and he said he would see if he could find it for me… About a week or so later he texted to say he would like to meet at lunch to return it to me… I told him it would be better after work, and he said he had other things to do… So we should meet at lunch, and reluctantly I agreed… I suggested … Continue reading →

TweetHow did June fare in the scheme of things??? Not as I would have chosen it to for sure… It turns out my Saturn returns, leaving did take a bit longer than we had seen in January, and when she pushed it out in May it landed at the end of June early July *this was way more accurate**… I did not keep my job, though through some kind people pushing; as well as mercury retrograde I held it longer than had originally been planned… Thank you mercury retrograde **there is a sentence you will rarely hear me use**… Today was my last day, though I am technically on vacation … Continue reading →

TweetThis is never a good conversation… It simply means we are going to have a long conversation about how much I suck, and then we will no longer be speaking after that… I have been the lucky recipient of this more than once recently… Don’t get me wrong I knew this was coming… I had just assumed that it would all fade into the woodwork as ending friendships often do… I had figured that after the way everything had gone down at Halloween, I was on borrowed time… It is very hard to admit that only one of you can have the friends at the end of the divorce… It … Continue reading →