Interesting question… Who am I??? We ask this and similar questions everyday… So I will explain this question I am asking so that there is no confusion around it…
Example;
A few months ago, I was working with a lady… A nice gal, and I thought we had been friendly… I remember on one specific day, there was a conversation about my dating someone… She said a bit to my surprise; that she was sure I did not have a boyfriend because she felt she would have known that information about me… I remember thinking she must have believed us to be somewhat close, that I would have told her that… Anyway, shortly after this conversation; she left the company, we made plans to have lunch a week or so later… When I arrived at this lunch it had become a visit over tea, and not even enough time for me to get tea actually… As upon my arrival after driving forty five minutes to meet her, I was told she would need to leave shortly as she had laundry to do… *Now I know I have mentioned the laundry excuse before so I was clear she was blowing me off, in that information we go forward to what happened next…* While we are sitting chatting about what had been going on at work since she had left, someone she had gone to school with came up and said hello to her… She proceeded to introduce me as her former co-worker… I am not offended that this was the introduction, nor was it inaccurate, it simply clarified how she saw me in her life… We walked back to her car and she gave me a hug and said she would like to see me again before moving away… I did not see her again, and I did not contact her again, as it was quite clear no matter what she said, no matter the wording, she did not desire a friendship with me…
So with the previous example, I ask you… Who am I to you??? Let me give you a Hypothetical situation so that you can better determine what I would like to know…
We (you and I) are sitting in a restaurant… It is about three pm in the afternoon… Neither lunch nor dinner time… This is a casual dining restaurant and we are casually and pleasantly dressed… We are not sitting side by side; we are across from one another at a center situated table… We are not touching in any way above or below the table… We are chatting comfortably yet in a way that would be difficult to determine our relationship at a glance…
Someone from your real life, the one you lead outside of work… Someone who has known you for many years sees you from across the room and walks up to the table we occupy… He/she says they saw you from across the room and they wanted to say hello… This person casually and questioningly glances at me, in the way of an introduction… How do you introduce me???
*Now I know you could easily back out of this question with one of those statements like “I am a private person, I wouldn’t introduce you” … However this is my question, and this is not an option… You must introduce me, and you must do it in front of me… *
How do you introduce me to this person???
Am I an ex co-worker??? An acquaintance??? An associate??? A friend??? Some chick you met once??? Your date???
Exactly!!! This is where I sit right now… I have no idea how I fit into your world… My fear has been that I do not rank as high as associate, as I have heard comments about associates in reference to life outside of work or class time… They have been referenced in what could be assumed a social type setting… So when I take the time to look at our relationship, I know that there has not been what would be considered a social setting interaction… Therefore it can be logically determined I would not be an associate… I am certainly not your girlfriend, as this would have required social setting interaction… I would love to say we are friends, though every attempt I have made has been shut down… So I must be an acquaintance??? Ex co-worker??? Something similarly basic… Someone who will not be remembered in more than an “I knew a girl once” conversation…
You told me once I would not be forgotten, and yet it is moving that way… I could do all kinds of crazy things, so you can see me, so you remember me… That however is not who I am, I am the girl who screams on the inside… I am the girl who lets people who no longer require her presence, find their way out, no matter how much I want them to stay… I don’t choose to be with those who do not choose to be with me… I will not chase you… I will accept your no thank you as gracefully as I can, and be grateful you blessed me with your presence for the time that we shared… I send you Love and Light, and I hope that should we not meet again in this life that we do in another…