In late June I got a text from my ex …
I had, had to contact him about my camera cord, and could I get it back??? The last time I had remembered seeing it was last summer in his office… We discussed the kids and he said he would see if he could find it for me…
About a week or so later he texted to say he would like to meet at lunch to return it to me… I told him it would be better after work, and he said he had other things to do… So we should meet at lunch, and reluctantly I agreed… I suggested he meet at my work and he said he would take it to my house… I finally just agreed, to just get it over…
Totally dreading meeting with him, I left and headed to my house… I was chanting my how does it get better, and how could this be better than anything I could plan or imagine??? As I flip my blinker on I noticed he was right in front of me… He had been for over a mile, and I had not even noticed…
Now this was the first time I had seen him since his wedding, and the second time talking with him… Back in December there were still tearful moments over the way he had no issues just not speaking with me at all… This is the man who swore that we would always be friends, best friends… Not so much really…
I get out of the car and we talk for a bit, and he gives me my cord… As I am standing there I am watching my reactions, and gauging how my heart rate is… All steady, I ask my body and being about how it feels, all I get is ease and peace… I continue through the whole visit to monitor me, my words, my actions, and reactions… We even discussed my computer and how the camera drive did not work on it… He offered to take a look, so I let him… He complimented my home and was very nice, he of course had no issue whatsoever getting the computer to read my card… ***seriously I had tried like eighteen times and nothing*** … He left and I went back to work…
I of course was looking at it most of the day… Why didn’t I feel anything??? Was I over it??? Had I really let go??? When I got back to work, I was asked if I had had fun??? My reply was I wouldn’t go right to fun, it was however enlightening…
When I got back home that evening, I stood in the grass grounding, pulling my energy back, and just being centered… I pulled all the excess energies out of my field and I asked, what took place today??? It came back you let go, and that is when I realized I had actually let go some time ago, and that what I had not let go of was how hard letting go was…
Making my attachment to the process of letting go, not to the man himself… How brilliant is that??? HAHAHAHA!!! Things that make you go hmmmm???
How does it get even better than that???