I have been playing this song over and over, not that you can hear it… http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-BIye98Ryic Here you go… The other song playing here today is http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aeGFu05xB-8 … Both amazing songs…
Two years ago I was playing this one in the car http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8v_4O44sfjM on a loop… I was so angry and I could not get it out of me… Then in a miracle of Divine proportions I was gifted the awareness that the true being I was angry with, and singing this song to; was me… The person that I could not forgive; was me… The person driving loves out of my life; was me… The person creating all the hurt in the beings I love; was me… The person absolutely not willing to allow you to see any goodness, kindness, caring, heart, SWEETNESS, in me; was me… Now I realize this sound a bit like a pity party, hold tight I have a point… This was such a break through, to find how deeply I had taken these points of view into who I believed I was… I showed up at my appointment, excited to tell my friend/ life coach what had come up from this song… You see when you find out this information about yourself it is huge, it shows you where to start and from there you can take the steps to change it…
More than ten years ago I was playing/singing this Alanis Morissette’s “You owe me nothing in return” song to a man… Today I sing it to me… Today I sing the Pink’s “You are perfect to me” song to me… Some days admittedly it is in an effort to convince myself, and some days it is that I believe it…
I have recently been blessed with many lovely people coming into my life, and I am grateful for each of them… One in particular, was willing to go into some crap that came bubbling to the surface for me today… It came up in all its crapdom to be looked at so that other choices could be made… I told her, that when she and I met at my house the other day; I knew we were friends, that there was a connection, and that it went way back… I told her that the same was of you, which is probably why you freaked me out… I also told her that I didn’t understand, through her I knew *note the words, I knew!* there was a deep connection, how could one not choose that???
Today I choose me… Today you do not, and as much as I would like to understand why you do not, it is not for me to know, and there is no way to truly understand, even if I was you… There is a very high likelihood that even you do not truly grasp why you make the choices you make… I frequently have, questioned my choices and the reasons that I chose them, though rarely truly knowing other than it was light… Clearly I will not be blessed with the answer, nor do I really require it… I simply am choosing to get it out and go forward… It makes no never mind, who you think I am, or what purpose I have been in your life, you have made your choice, and I honor it; that is done…
What would it take to be the one chosen??? How amazing and beautiful is it, to have someone wake up every day choosing you??? How does it get even better than that???