What the… You must have totally fallen on your head!!!
Do you really think I have a thing for him??? I Think Not!!! No!!! I am sorry clearly because you flirt through anger; you have mistaken contempt for flirtatious competition, for a pig… Why anyone would choose to cognitively chase a man who has shown time and again he has absolutely no respect for anyone; let alone his choice to share how much he does not care for the one he married… You tell me, does she know he tells everyone he doesn’t like her??? Not very likely…
I ask this because, I have been her more than once… I have been that girl who loved the man she was with, the one she shared a home with, a man who found so little value in her, he chose not only to tell all of his work, he chose to tell all of her work how they were not getting along, that they were fighting and probably would break up… Funny he didn’t tell me…
I should have known, and yet at that time I had no idea, until that one guy who liked me informed me that this was what was playing out… Now you would think I would just think the guy was trying to cause trouble, and yet something told me to follow it up… So I asked him straight up, was he really asking other girls out where I work, while he was there to see me??? He said he was unhappy and we had not been getting along for a few months, so yes he had asked one of them out… Turns out this girl said yes, even knowing we lived together… Impressive don’t you think??? These people have no idea the impact they have on other people’s lives… They do not for a moment see the scope of damage they create…
This has been my trigger lately, old shit coming up again… Over and over I have looked at it, why does it still sting??? Why not just let it go??? This does not impact my life anymore, why dredge up drama that is no longer mine??? Maybe I am afraid I haven’t grown enough to avoid this type relationship??? Maybe I need to be the fix it guy and keep telling this pig, he is a pig until he sees what he is doing??? Not that that it is likely he will notice anytime soon… Maybe I still don’t trust me??? And yet I look and can see today where I have given my heart, I know the heart is safe… I choose a different type of person these days, gratefully…
So the word of the day is… It is a word I would like everyone to practice every time you come to a place in which you are asked to do what you do not want to do, now it is a really hard word, hard to spell as well, are you ready??? Are you sure??? Alright here we go… NO!!! No, I do not want to marry you, No, I do not love you, No, I do not want to spend my life with you, No, I do not want to stop sleeping with every pretty and not so pretty girl that comes in my path, No, I do not want to… I know that seems hard and it comes from someone who often gets in trouble for not using it as well… Such as do you want to work late, No… Do you like what you are doing, No!!! You get the jest of this conversation… So keep practicing… NO!!!