Dear Blank,
I want to thank you for meeting with me yesterday… When I woke up yesterday I was beyond excited, I had woken in the night several times; everyone with a smile and a look at the clock to see if it was close to being time to get up… When it was time to be up and about, I still had to wait until a civil time in which to call and see if I could come out and see the Horses…
I have spent years wanting to do this, and I came close while living in England, and yet the experience lasted but a day…
My heart was open and ready to embrace what would come next… I had allowed myself to have riding lessons, to be with horses… I have dreamt of this day, and when I made my decision to gift this to myself, it had not been done lightly…
You see over the last four years or so I have had all my children become beautiful responsible adults, and move on to what they will be for themselves, I have been divorced, and I have lived on my own in another country that took many months before I had made any friends, adjusted to the culture, or could spend one day without crying… I lost one hundred pounds… I have lost people in my life simply by allowing myself to be who I am, I recently returned from a very difficult journey to India, in which I have been profoundly changed, I have been through enormous changes at every turn of these four years… My hope was that I could make friends with a being that did not mind my being who I am, and not having to go into all the past… Horses are like that, they hold your heart and your secrets…
I would like to express my gratitude at your willingness to be very unkind and judgmental in order to show me my strength… Not many beings are truly willing to do this for another… In your choice of words and conversation yesterday you showed me back to a dark place of wrongness that I have spent a lot of time in… I was truly impressed that it took only a half an hour drive for me to realize your words were not about me, they are about you… I was able to realize that I am worth this gift and that I will not let someone else’s words stop me from having what I truly desire… In saying this I would like to let you know I have found a riding academy and will start lessons next week… I am grateful that I had the strength to continue and to see my dream about to be realized…
Blessing of Love and Light for you and yours,
Me