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TweetDo you know me??? Can you see me??? Not the body, ME… I love differently than most… What I mean is that I love you now, right now, as soon as I meet you… It is not until you show me the danger in loving you that I show restraint… This is not the norm, nor is it popular… Most beings go the other way, most choose to love over time, once you have shown them you are worthy of their love… I know, yes I know, let me say it again I KNOW you are worthy of my love, I give it freely by choice… In this it is … Continue reading →

TweetIt is very clear that the person I used to be is conflicting with the person I am today… What I would have chosen two years ago, is not something I would choose today… Have you ever stood in a room full of people that you know and felt like a complete stranger??? Absolutely everyone knows your name, though few can see you??? Have you ever discovered that things you really used to enjoy you do not any longer??? Did I like them because my friends did??? Did I eat that because someone else liked it??? Do I dress for you or for me??? For me it feels like everything … Continue reading →

TweetLet me see where am I in the scheme of things if I were in February??? I am in Portland and still missing home, and yes I do feel like Darlington is more my home than here…Mostly because I know who I am there, even when I do not like what I am, I know her… One of my friends mentioned recently that maybe I should change my facebook home location if I were not returning soon….  Am I returning soon???I think only the Gods know what I will be doing, for now it is in my heart and therefore my home… Here in Portland it is very difficult not … Continue reading →

TweetDo you get sad??? I do, and often I have no idea why… I just feel sad, I look at my life and it is very clear how lucky I am… So it would seem I have no reason to be sad, and yet I feel sadness… A few months ago I was sure I was missing being in Portland, and I was feeling sad… I love my friends in Portland, and I love that I can see the beautiful faces of my lovely children in Portland, I see their smiles, and hear their laughter, and I can hug them… I love the beings here so truly and deeply for … Continue reading →

TweetI hope you all had an Awesome Holiday!!! Whatever your chosen celebration, my heart wishes you much joy!!! I had a joyful visit with my friends at a birthday party just after arriving here * my gratitude to Mark for the gift of a party, and to my friends for showing me once again how much love they bring to my life*… I have had the joyful opportunity of seeing and spending time with family through the last week… Even when we seem to be filled with friction, I love them more than I could ever say, I truly hope that they each have a lives filled with all the … Continue reading →

TweetOh the resistance of it all… I started packing two days before I had to leave for London, this may have been a mistake… Somehow it all piled up upon me… If you have ever seen me pack you would understand what I mean… I sit and consider what will go and where it will be placed in the bags for quite a while before making the decision of yes or no, and then putting it in the bag… This went on for two days, until about two hours before the taxi arrived to take me to the train station… I think this time there may have been a resistance … Continue reading →

TweetI leave for London in just over a week… I cannot even tell you how odd this is… Time is such a funny construct, sometimes it seems like it will not move and then woooosh it has flown by… So my time here is getting busier as we go, I keep thinking I do not need to start packing yet, though I am upon the time where I will need to make definite plans for all that has been accumulated here in this beautiful little town of Darlington, England… I have been extremely blessed this visit, I have made many new friends and had the opportunity to get closer with … Continue reading →

TweetLast week, I had some visitors from Germany these three lovely girls stayed two nights with me… They are avid Harry Potter fans *which is my middle name* and they had been visiting sights around the UK having to do with the writing and movies… They came to Darlington so that they could see the Cathedral in Durham, where they filmed the first two/three movies *I have gotten different info on this*… The Cathedral is beautiful and they were lucky to be there during the Christmas Fayre… As well as the lighting of the Christmas Tree in Darlington, and our Christmas Market… They left early on Friday for Stonehenge, and … Continue reading →

TweetYou can tell it’s getting close to Christmas when all I want to do is bake… I get very sentimental this time of year, and try to create a post card, romantic song, movie life… Unfortunately it rarely works… I love to cook and the kitchen I have is less than conducive to mass baking… A couple years ago, I decided to send everyone cookies and treats for Christmas, and I baked for a week and a half… I baked 12 different kinds of cookies and made fudge, peanut brittle, and a couple kinds of cake… I sent them out to all of our family all over the country, I … Continue reading →

TweetEveryone was posting their feeling of gratitude the other day on the US holiday Thanksgiving, and I have to say I was really rather irritated by it… Not because they were being all grateful, not even because I wasn’t, more because I wasn’t there to be with them…  I know that sounds terrible, though that is how I felt… I am grateful for so much really… For instance this morning I was blow drying my hair and thinking of my housemate that had been so kind as to have let me use his hairdryer, since mine had overloaded a couple months ago… I am grateful that I am not the … Continue reading →