Time to get going again, I have made the decision to go back to England… I have to get my tickets, pack my bags, and clear up as much life baggage as is possible before boarding a plane for the UK…
Why does that song all my ex-es live in Texas come to mind??? June finds me single for real this time… There are still cards saying someone is coming, though he has yet to show up… I have been told time and time again I have called him in and he is here, that it is simply a matter of him showing up… They say there is nothing I can do, no where I need to be, he knows where I am and he will find me… I know he is there, I can feel him, though I can not see him or touch him… I suspect that the baggage, closure, letting go has something to do with it???
The universe has seen fit to show me all the endings this month… Have I mentioned that I am not that great at endings??? I tend to tantrum through them… It’s like the proverbial; you can walk in holding your head up and accepting it, or you can be dragged in kicking and screaming, either way your going… I have much to my own dismay, more often than not chosen the kicking and screaming… Not so pretty and it takes a while to get yourself all sorted out, once you have realized it’s all over and here you are… You stop and take a look into the mirror and think; It wasn’t so bad??? What was that carrying on all about??? *sigh* Breathe…