What would you do to have what you desire??? What would you do to make sure you couldn’t have what you desire??? Which proves how truly powerful you are??? Which brings you the outcome you truly desire???
I had a conversation with someone recently about my beliefs; I told him that I believed that we created our own realities *something along those lines anyway*… He asked me if I thought we really had that much power??? I laughed and said “oh I know we have way more than that”… I think at that moment he might have been skeptical, though I am thinking he is beginning to see things my way now…
Have you ever been addicted to someone, or more to the point their energy??? Someone you could not stop thinking about??? You just have to see them, hear them, and speak to them??? Have you ever done things to see, hear, speak to this person you would never have done before??? Completely act irrational, crazy, stalker-esk??? Completely strung out in need of their energy??? Would you tell someone you needed this badly, that you do not want them??? If so why??? Are you trying to prove your potency, by overcoming the obsession??? Are you so insecure that you truly believe no one could want you, and thereby you push those, you know will prove you wrong away??? Are you afraid because you do not like or even love yourself; that no one else could either, and you might be proven right??? Or maybe you simply enjoy *what did you call it again???* Oh right, that you inspire me??? Would you enjoy being the inspiration, just so you know that you have not been forgotten???
I have, I know exactly what all that feels like… How certain people can make you absolutely insane, simply by not being near… About 11 years ago, I dated a man that was WOW!!! Seriously gorgeous, though I assure you it had nothing to do with his looks… I met him online; when he sent me his picture I thought it was a joke… I even asked him if it was a joke, if he had cut the picture from a magazine ad??? Was he a model??? To all of this he said no… He wasn’t lying; I met him within a couple days… We hit it off really well, we talked for hours, and we dated for a couple weeks… He was just so *here is where you would think I was going to say pretty, gorgeous, beautiful, hunky* open, so willing to let me be who I am… He did not care about weight or any of my personality/body quirks… He liked me and if I had grown three noses it did not matter… Here is the kicker, he was busy, he was free, he wanted to see me, and he was not willing to give up his life or dreams to do it… I ended up being this total basket case, doing things I would never have even thought to do to get him to pay attention to me… I mean crazy things; I made different personas to catch him up, all this way out of line, out of control stuff… What was I thinking??? No idea, I just wanted him to be with me, the funny thing is he wanted that too, though I did everything I could to ruin it… Eventually all this crazy came out, and he says to me what do you want??? Really what do you want??? I remember thinking to myself, I have no idea… What do I want??? So I sat down with a pad of paper, and I wrote out exactly what I believed I wanted… Turns out despite that I said I didn’t want relationship, I did… Once I had this all written out, I left the rest to the universe… About two months later, I would meet the man I would spend the next ten years with… In case you are wondering about the man who made me crazy *or I chose crazy with*, we are still friends and he is truly someone I can say things to, that I have never been able to say out loud to anyone else… He is a person, who does not judge the crazy stuff that comes out of my mouth, nor does he question why I said it, in fact he generally encourages it all… It is fabulous to have a friend like that… I have told him many times that he changed my life, he still does not see it; maybe someday he will…
Anyway, I spent all this time trying to drive him away, when really all I had to do was tell him I wanted him to stay… Is it at all possible that you are asking for the same??? Maybe you just really need a friend??? Maybe if you stop looking at all the ways you think it should look, and it doesn’t??? Maybe if you admit that it simply is what it is, you can do the kindest thing for yourself and make friends with that person that seems to be making you absolutely nuts??? Maybe that being is the key to the freedom that you dearly want??? Maybe that being is supposed to be in your life??? Maybe that person likes and loves you, simply because you exist, and isn’t asking you for anything else??? Stranger things have happened *to me even*…
How could this be better than anything I could ever plan or imagine??? What are the infinite possibilities???