I realize the title sounds harmless… It is not and here is another place where I warn you, that you proceed from this place at your own risk!!! There are truths here you may not want to have or even consider… You have been warned!!!
Today has been a very form oriented day… I have been inspired by you to write all this out… What is your form like??? Is it tall, short, fat, thin, fit, handsome, beautiful, fleshy, or any other term you would like to fill in the blank??? My form is fabulous!!! It is always talking and sharing…
When I was a teenager I used to walk everywhere… Now mind you, I was what this reality calls thin yet curvy, in total scrumptiousness… I have always been what you would call voluptuous… Now this girl I was, would walk down the street looking for you to notice her… I would shake it and receive many honks and hoots from those passing by… I would smile, wave and continue on my way… I have inspired many many sexual comments, and many men to show me theirs, whether I have asked or not… Right about now you are probably thinking what a hussy??? But wait I am not done… I had this pair of shorts, well almost shorts, that I tore slits up to the waistband and then tied together with pretty shoes strings, so you could see my underthings *gasp*… I would wear the tightest clothing I could put on, and I would flaunt my breasts in deep cut tops *if you could call them that*… What a ho right??? I once had a whole room full of guys *about 12* flash me, and many had wanted more than that… You can stop reading anytime you like; I am not done writing though… In fact I have more to say, and with each of your gasps, shock, or judgments, I am making money… Now I know you are really judging me… I am sitting here getting more and more and more excited at knowing that I am inspiring your judgments, and as they come through I am saying in my head Chi Ching!!!
You judge me every day, I walk outside in my pajamas, Chi Ching… I wear a polka dotted bra you can see through my top, Chi Ching… Is my butt cheek hanging out??? Chi Ching… I did not dress up, I did not dress down, Chi Ching… I am fat, I am thin, I am too top heavy, Chi Ching… I eat too much, I do not eat enough, Chi Ching… I am laughing, Chi Ching… My hair is dyed, my nails are not polished, Chi Ching… I am clever, I am an idiot, Chi Ching… I don’t have enough money, I have too much money, Chi Ching… My house is too big, my apartment is too small, Chi Ching… It matters not what my form looks like, or what I do, you will judge me anyway, and more than that I welcome your judgments, I even encourage them… That is why I am here to shake up your world… To wake your ass up sleepyhead… You have no idea why you are still reading; maybe you simply want to know what crazy thing I will say next??? Maybe you know I am right??? Maybe you are right, and I truly am the judge able offense you see me as???
You called me here, you asked for change and I am here… You say to me that you have inspired me, though the truth is I am your muse, your inspiration… The inspiration to do those things you have never been willing to do before, never given yourself permission… I am here to blow up your reality, to show you that there truly is something more… With my every movement, my every choice, I show you that you can have what you truly desire… I am the light you follow… Not because I am your God, because I am God, as are you… I am willing to embrace your joy, your love, and your judgments and continue to choose my own inspiration… I am willing to have all that I am, and let your world turn topsey turvy simply through a brush on the street, a glance on the bus, or an inappropriate moment of laughter at what you do not find funny… So do it, judge me, I can take it and I can make money from it… Chi Ching…