Have you ever received a Christmas wish??? I mean really received it??? I have…
Last night I had a lovely friend over, and we were chatting and enjoying a visit… When my phone started to blow up with texts of Merry Christmas, quickly followed by; are you ok???
Lol… As I am sure you already know, this is simply a call to brace yourself, something you are not going to like has just come about in the universe tonight….
Seriously what would you think I would do??? Jump from the highest building??? Drink poison in the most dramatic fashion??? Crumble into a million tiny little fragments never to be seen again??? Life as I know it has not come to an end… In fact it is just beginning…
My friend and I continued on with our visit, thinking up different scenario’s as we do… What if??? How about this??? Oh I know, this would be great, don’t you think??? OMG that would be so funny… One of these scenarios’ struck me as something I would truly enjoy…
With just a bit of back story, I am asked if I think that I made a mistake… No, I do not… It has not been an easy choice; it has not been pleasant choice… Though it was and is my choice, and what is best for me… That is all I can ask for… I do not regret, though of all the pieces I miss, I miss the warmth of it… I have said it a lot lately, I have not been warm in what feels like forever and what I know to be several years… I miss the warmth…
So that is what I asked for, for Christmas… I wanted to feel warm again; even more than that, that is what I was given… I watched the energy, and asked my questions, truly held my space to observe me; am I just in denial??? Is this something I do not want to see??? No was the answer, you really are free…
There is a beauty in what comes between two beings that no matter how much you try to visualize how it will turn out, your imagination cannot do it justice… It will be what it is… You can say I want this or that; and it will come in forms you have never expected or could plan…
In the glow of Christmas lights I found the warmth again… Thank You Santa!!! Merry Christmas!!!
My prayers to you that you too find the warmth, and all your wishes come true…